Letting Go and Letting God.

It's easy sometimes for me to dwell on past hurts. To focus on what someone may have said, and hold that in my heart... it is a daily, hourly sometimes battle for me to let go of a perceived injury. When someone implies that because I don't see a particular (disputable to me - commandment to them) passage in the same way they do that my marriage needs work, or I am sinning... well, it hurts. A lot.

I know part of the reason for that... at least for me... this person doesn't know me, doesn't know my marriage. And yet it hurts. But I forgive when an apology is made although they negate it by saying that they meant what they said... my struggle is in forgetting.

So... I will act as if... if I forgave and forgot... how would I behave? And while I do that, I'll keep praying for restoration of this relationship. I really value this friendship. And while I don't know that they'll ever get it... ultimately... it's up to Him. And, it'll be fun meeting in person when we get to Heaven.

Grace

Let it Be!

I am such a fan of the Beatles... speaking words of wisdom... Let it Be, Let it Be... there will be an answer... Let it Be, Let it Be. For various reasons, that song is running through my head today. What a blessing... God is singing to me.

It's been a good week on the whole! I've inadvertantly hurt someone and while I apologized, I think they haven't forgiven me yet. I'm not sure that they will. However, all I can do is what I can do. They can choose to accept and forgive or not. It's up to them, really. I hope they do. I do value their friendship. But... ultimately... it is their choice. If they happen to read this, I meant what I said, any offense was not intended. I am so sorry I hurt you.

I have tomorrow off, and will enjoy my time with my kids who also have the day off. I think we'll have a roast sticky chicken and some mashed potatoes, and a nice salad of baby greens. I need to run tomorrow and do legs for weight training. Other than that... I'm relaxing!!

May the Lord be with you!

Random thoughts...

It's been a good week! I really feel awesome about what I've accomplished so far...

1. I got a workout in Wednesday, Thursday, Friday and Saturday! Yay me!!

2. My eating has stayed clean... good lean protein, good veggies, unprocessed carbs.

3. Water consumption has been right on target! Lots of water and the cool thing is, the more of it I drink the more I want it.

Work is all well in hand! The Lord has been showing me a lot lately in my time in the mornings. I'm pondering it all, and taking it in. After I finish my studies, I'll share them with you all.

Grace

Baby Steps!

Getting the goals accomplished takes what I like to call baby steps...

For example... drinking the water means making sure I have cold, tasty water in my fridge. That's the necessary baby step to that goal

Exercising every day means getting up at 5:00 a.m. which in turn means heading to bed at a decent hour... those are necessary and required baby steps. And it also helps because I can use those first early minutes to spend time with Him which is another critical goal.

In so many ways we are all still babies... learning, and growing increasining in knowledge... I hipe that I succeed in keeping the babysteps up. I will, with God's help.

Grace

New Year's Resolutions!

1. To be more pleasant and less plump!

2. To spend time in the morning working out

3. To spend time with the Lord each morning.

4. To drink at least 8 glasses of water a day

5. To eat 6 small meals a day balanced with carbs and protein.

To motivate myself by encouraging others!! That's it. I can do it... with God's help!